Day 12 – the Rant

A year from Now you may wish 

You had started Today

-Karen Lamb

I haven’t done this in a long time, title an entry for the blog website ‘the rant’.  Even though my writing may seem a little disoriented, I try to keep on topic. Today I have no real focus, but I still had the desire to post something here.  In the entry before this one I typed that I will try to do write about food, mind body in a cycle of some kind.  Today is a food day.  I haven’t tried another alternative oatmeal breakfast.  In fact I had a setback, I ate a box of cheez-its and they were delicious.  It was the only thing I ate yesterday.  Anyone on the healthy track that reads this is going be like ‘WHAATTT!”  I haven’t been 100% good but I have been better than I was yesterday and I will be feeling it all day today.  

How did this happen?  I told myself that I shouldn't keep food in my room.  On Tuesday I broke that rule and brought in the infamous box and other cheesy calorie loving goodness.  I don’t know if I said this before but I love cheese.  It can be a downfall for me. I know that I will most likely have to get my food portion into some kind of order because I can overdue it.  So that is something I have to work on.  Along with all the obvious things that I have to work on. 

Wednesday, I had a mental shutdown.  I went to sleep like 5am in them morning.  I did a good zombie impression then conked out completely.   This will completely mess with for rest of the week.  I haven’t typed about this a lot but I have trouble sleeping.  I have always had this problem since I was a kid and I kind of made it worse by having a night job.  I may even have a mild form of shift work sleep disorder.  I am not sure and I haven’t spoken to a doctor about it.  What I do know is that it can takes a week or more before I can fix my sleep cycle again.  Until then I will be struggling to write and struggling to maintain the mission of the 100 days project XX.  Sleep is a topic for another entry.  I have a feeling I typed that before.  Let’s hope I do research and utilize the correct citations and references. 

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10 - The Meaning of Lives

    

 A year from Now you may wish 

You had started Today

-Karen Lamb

The title may seem confusing but this is how I explain things in my head.  I have two lives, my internet life and the real one.  Sometimes they get along splendidly too often they are getting on each other’s nerves.  One of the sub goals of this project is to blend the two lives.  It is a lifestyle change process. This made me wonder, what is lifestyle?  What is wellness?  The definitions are so simple but so important. Lifestyle is the way in which person or group lives.  Wellness is the state or condition of being in good physical and mental health.

The first time I joined the daily challenge by MeYou Health, I took a test that let me know that both my lifestyle and wellness were poor.  It was not something new to me.  A person existing understands that they are on the bare bones of living.  It is one of the reasons why changing or asking for help very difficult.  Or why they are grumpy.  Now that I my mind is not set on a negative track, I wonder how I was able to go through life and not understand what was happening to me.  I mean I felt the effects of everything.  The causes were all different or maybe they weren’t I just rolled with the punches.  Then started to look like the punch bag. 

I have struggled with lifestyle, wellness, weight loss on previous projects that were doomed to failure because I lacked specific keys to success.  I don’t even think I have them all now.  I am still grappling with motivating myself to do differently. However I am putting out the effort in small increments at present.  I am going with the adage ‘small changes big effects’. 

It was decided to have 3 foci on this blog, mind, body, food.  Yesterday’s post was about food.  Today is the mind. Tomorrow is about body, I think. This will be a two weeks probation. If I am lucky I will be able to write something that make a little more sense.  

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Good News Everyone!!!!

Yes, I am quoting Professor Farnsworth of Futurama.  I weighed in today and I am 3lbs less than I was last week.   This may seem insignificant.  But I like to take my small blessings where I can find them.  I am still calorie counting and I am continue to walk daily.  I might also extend the walks to the weekend.  I need to increase activity.   This will probably mean an exercise routine.  I have most likely whined about this before.  I hate the idea of exercise.  I don’t think I have said that.  I try to find ways to sound positive about the express my apprehension and lack of motivation in words that don’t make me sound like a lazy monkey. 

I can’t remember if I typed this before but I took a test on Facebook, I was graded at 77% lazy.  I was Homer Simpson on the couch.  Sometimes I feel like Homer and sometimes I am Lumpy Space Princess from Adventure Time.  It would be great if I could draw this characters and use them as fan art but I can’t draw a straight line.  So I borrowed these images from the internet.  Please do not sue me.  I have nothing but my kid. 

The plan for this week is too extend walk regimen. I have viewed some exercise plans and I have not decided which will work best for me.  I do believe I am in denial.  Some days are great.  Some days suck.  Today went better than I thought it would.  This week’s Tuesday was the worse.  I didn’t walk.  So Wednesday was out of this world bad.  Now that I think about it.  Every Monday is like I am starting all over again.  New plan the walk regimen has to include the weekend.   I now I sound crazy.  The flow of words seem unbalanced. That is because I am making them up as I go along.  This is the truth.   I know there is problem, I don’t want to face it.  Okay back to denial.  I will do my best to update at the end of week.  Just like I am doing Today.      This 100days project is wobbly but it is still up and running.