End of 100 days VI

Hey y'all after some consulting with my fatty calender. I realized the 100 day project VI had ended. The result was nothing was accomplished. I bitched and whined about everything else. Truth is I didn't stay motivated and I didn't keep to the plan. The naked truth was I had no plan. I just wanted to try different "healthy things" and hope I was getting better. I tried to start a support group within family it did not work. I got discouraged, then lazy. 

Realizations
I now know that I have to have a plan and I have to keep it. I need to make it flexible but that does not mean forget all together.
I need to use the things I bought (a reformer, excercise tape, workout journal) to become healthy. I need to incorporate good changes in my life, with the same ease I accepted the bad.  I need to find a way to sleep 8 hours every night instead of the 10 or 12 binge sleeps I do after staying up 1 or 2 days.
I need to remind myself of that shit everyday for the next three months. I need to make and keep major decisions.
The first decision is that I need to rename the 100 days blog. If possible it will just be 100 days projects - create, inspire, achieve: do better or bust. I will tag or label which project numeral it is from now on.  I want this to work. I need this to work.  This is happening at the first laptop I get to. 

So this is goodbye.
VI was a good one; II-V were heart and head aches. I completely forgot about 100 days project I.  I will close this blog. To create a new one with improved objectives. I had no clue if this was read or not but I am glad I put the effort out there to have it.

Peace

Eleven

This day is close to 100, not sure where ut will look it up.  What went wrong with the progect? Why did everything go off the rails?
I know I didn't define my goals, I didn't give myself milestones to achieve. I lost motivation and hence direction.  When 100 days IX starts and it will b/c I have to complete at least one, I think I will post the goals and methods to attain them. I will attempt to gain support from other but if that doesn't happen. Eff them.  I am doing what I need to do to be happy.

Short but is it cute?

To answer my title question no. Not cute at all.  I am at the moment deliberating about my weight gain. Being told by some that I look like I am sliming down some days and others I should say moo. 
Today is a moo day for me and I don't like it but at a loss at how to make it un-cow.  To tell the truth sometimes feeling like cow works for me. Cows care about their calves and eating. I have one kid and sometimes puting out the effort to be less cow and more person is a lot. It also doesn't help that I am single.

100 days 4ever

If this keeps up, I will be doing the 100-days 100. I have yet to complete the 100 day goal. I should be more depressed but I'm not just frustrated with my procrastination.
While contemplating what I am doing with my life and my choices, I realized I have FUBAR'd more than I have achieved.  I am in 6 feet of debt and since I am only 4'11" I see no way out before I am 80.
I want to be happy and optimistic about this shit and usually I have the mind set anything can happen as long as you are alive.  Change can happen.  But I was deep in my depression cup when I started this blog.  Nothing seemed like it would change and be good.  Not much improvement has happened either.  I just don't feel like total crap anymore.  How is that for optimism.