21

This is a significant number for me. It is the day I was born and how old I was when I became a mother.   I never really liked it because it wasn't even.  I prefer even numbers to odd.  This brief post will be about nothing to important.   I make to many promises and vows on this blog.  It is horrible.  I am currently re-evaluating everything again.  This 100 days goal is bust and I am the only one to blame.  I don't plan and follow through properly.  I let other ppl and my own issues get in the way.  I always think I can take the consequences but that is never the real case.  I can't handle shit.

I met people who are doing what they love and loving what they do.  I want to be jealous of them but I am not I just don't want to feel like my life is lacking.  I don't want others to look at my life and where I live and think, oh, how sad.  

I am digressing.  This blog is important to me.  Posting here about achievements and positive change is important to me.  So I will reflect on the choices and the plans I am making and if I am able I will do better.