65 Reset the Reset

A year from now you may wish you started today

-Karen Lamb

I live by the quote above.  I started this blog with the intent of giving myself accountability.  I can’t remember what was stated in the previous essay.  I imagine it was something about losing my way, failing at the self-imposed tasks.  Not having another plan to adjust to disaster.  Refusing the give up because this journey because it is important.  There is a strong affinity for the underdog in me. 

The truth is, I am different from a year ago; despite the apprehensions of new year there was also optimism and strong belief in the possibilities of something great.  I have no such feelings for the coming of 2017.  I am going to try my best to live. I am going to do what I can, on the internet and in real life.  I tell kids this all the time, the only thing you have control over is yourself.  This is all I can do.

These are the facts of the year.  The lifestyle change projects for health and wellness, have not succeeded.  The reasons are all mine.  I don’t give my views priority and I cave at the smallest obstacle.  I don’t follow through on my plans.  These bad habits have shaped my life into something unfavorable.  These habits are influence everything in my real life and internet life.  Knowing and doing are two different things.  I must come to terms with that.  

I haven’t given up.  I will use the remaining days of 2016 to evaluate what is happening with me in regards to health and wellness.  The first thing is that I will be making an appointment to see my doctors, primary care and gyn.  I am at the age where things go bad for older people.  Mature women in general have specific things going on that I need to pay more attention to. 

Earlier this year this would be the end of the essay.  Times have changed, the new personal writing challenge is 500+words, applied to all website/blogs.   The 300+word challenge has been the only practice that has continued for over a year without issue.  It is good that I’m able to achieve something that I set out to do.  The increase in the wo

rd count is to confront complacency.  It is something that should been done daily, take myself out of the comfort zone and deny shitty habits.   It was read somewhere that habits are formed in 28 days, they take as long to break. 

 It will be some time before I get it right.  I accept that there will be times when I will fail at attempted methods.  I believe this endeavor is important and I have to go all in to make it work.  That means going against habits I really like. The goal is working towards a better outcome than the previous years.

In conclusion, this is the reset of the reset, that was supposed to be launched in October.  A personal incident interrupted that endeavor. I may have mentioned it in the previous essay.  The plans for 2017, be honest, keep to the goals, admit failure without animosity.  Pursue the better health and wellness choices.  Find the positive aspect and maintain it. 

I offer my best wishes and prayers to anyone who is reading this and the ones who pass by it without a thought. 

Happy New Year!!!!!

63 Back in the Saddle.

Take good care of your body, it’s the only place you have to live.

-Jim Rohn

I have proof that if you don't use an idea, someone is bound to take it from you.  I have been struggling with the 100days project for many years, since late 2008.  It has never gone the way I would like.  I am mostly at fault.  

On Tuesday, September 13th, John Green of Nerdfighteria announced his 100 days project, that will be recorded with a friend and posted on Youtube.  He has it all set up from what I saw in the doodly-doo below.   I was surprised, intrigued and then I got miffed.  At myself for not pushing the project the way I was supposed to.  When I start the projects, I usually peter out on week 3. I lose motivation and then focus.  I write failure and apologize for it.  What is being written is boring and I understand why I don't have readers.  These entries were a way to be accountable for my actions or non-actions.  There are many people who do similar with video on Youtube.  In the last year or two I've become a big fan of it.  I wasn't when it came out.  It was just the place people posted weird videos.  I had a farm to tend on facebook.   Times have changed.  I am still in a rut.  It feels ridiculous.  

I can't give it up.   Mainly because I never feel I have given it all my effort.  There is a whole lot of information about being healthy, being well.  I have never gone all in on anything.  I always hold back.  It is a character flaw, I have to seriously take a look at.  What does this mean?  It means John Green and Friend will do their thing on Youtube.  I will do my thing here on Blogger.   

100 Days Project Infinity will begin again in October.  I have at least 4 challenges beginning in October, all have time limits. The one that will be involved with this project is the Daily Burn: True Beginner program.  For about seven months, I have been giving Daily Burn $15.00 a month.  It is time,  I use what DB offers for my benefit.  True Beginner is an 8-week program, 100days Infinity is 14  weeks.  Entries on this post will be weekly.   There will be more on these plans. 

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Six Weeks

A year from Now, you’ll be glad you started Today.

-Karen Lamb

It has roughly been about six weeks, since the beginning of this 100 days project.    In the middle of week seven as I type this entry.  There has been no positive changes.  Nothing stated before has been implemented with consistency.  I really suck at making and keeping to plans.  I have decided to spend the next weeks making small changes, making healthier choices when possible and evaluating the strategies.   Finding time to write about anything has been difficult. 

Due to circumstances out of my control, my motivation in almost everything has been seriously depleted.  It is not a good feeling. It has involved itself in all parts of my life.   Writers that are well established have said that writer’s block is a myth, creators not worthy of creating use this excuse to hide their lack of productivity or laziness.   I call bullshit. I also believe in reader’s block and now that I’m an avid fan of audiobooks I know I have been hit with audio book block as well.  It the feeling that no matter what you write, read or listen to it turns to shit; shit on the page, shit before your eyes and shit in your ears.   It can also be a nothing feeling, hollowness that is completely unsettling at best, unsatisfying at worst.  It tends to lead to verbal over dramatics on my part. These negative feelings effects your mood and everything in your environment.

You start searching for something that will give you that satisfied feeling.  You don’t know what will do it and you never think you  will find something that great old or new to help  with this feeling of nothing/shit but you try anyway.    The inspiration to write, the fascination of the story, a narrator or music that will remind you are the person, you think you are.  Sometimes these tactics fail and you end up eating cookies, the whole jalapeno potato chip bag with onion dip at three in the morning.  Completely disregarding your self-imposed food restrictions. 

You think why the effing cookies, when fruit was on the kitchen table as well?   The easy answer to that question is that you don’t have to peel cookies or potato chips.  The actual reason is that healthy apples, carrots or celery never came in your mind.  You should have just drank 2 big glasses of water and forced yourself to sleep.   But you are stuck in the unhealthy food choice spiral.  The solution prepare yourself for this plan C moments.   They happen more often than you would like when you are trying to change it.  New plans for February and March plan C, D, E, or F if necessary.  Never let a momentary bad choice destroy you completely.  I know that I have been writing in the second person point of view, this is a tactic to trick me into following my own sound advice.  I have to start again somewhere.

This is the second essay posted for the year and the deal I made with myself was to attempt at least 2 entries a month. My earlier expectation of two entries a week had to be revised.    The list of woes are long and I won’t delve any deeper in them than I have to except  to state that it  is hard when you realize your best laid plans are being ignored especially by you.  I know that I am my own worst enemy. I should be very wary of myself and yet I keep getting in my own way and laughing maniacally while I do it.  Well that doesn’t actually happen.  I do believe that may be a sign of mental instability and I don’t want to offend anyone.  

That was an interesting divergent.  If you or any one looks back into other blogs of 100 days you will see that I wanted to do daily post then changed to weekly post about everything that involves wellbeing- the mind, body and spirit;  I believed that addressing these aspects were important for overall wellbeing.  Also include environment as well, so instead of a triangle think a wellbeing pyramid. Observing and looking at all the angles was a method to trick myself into better choices, healthier activity, and positive mindset, which would improve productivity and boost motivation.   This was a hard endeavor as my time is never just my time.   I am still stealing time.  The prize to this issue is organization and sticking to whatever in the schedule.   It is something I will have to work out in my non-publication journal.    Due to my policy of limited personal information, I will give an overview of what I will do and what is happening in later essays.  Hopefully all with be well and later in this month I will be able to give you a truly positive report.

   

61 There should be an Awesome Title here

Two Weeks... ...

A Year from Now you may wish you Started Today.

-Karen Lamb

One of the many pitfalls when changing your lifestyle is falling back into old bad habits that messed it up in the first place.  It is sickeningly easy for me to have a warped sleep schedule, forget to drink water, make unhealthy food choices, etc. etc.  I still have yet to find a decent exercise schedule.  That is my list of woes. 

I am depressingly at ground zero again.  It only took two months of holidays and a stint of caretaking at the hospital.  There should be a plan B or C when life interrupts plan A.  Last year’s plan A hit the fan.  The plan for this year is similar to last year but better, it will be a success.  It will be different because there are new factors in this year that were not in place of last year.  I won’t go into detail because that would include family matters that should not be part of the website/blog.  It was a decision that has made me comfortable.  I will mention it again.  I believe in limited personal information.  I realize that with this website/blog might be difficult.  How to write about lifestyle change w/o mentioning the life you are living.  This might be a dilemma for other post. 

        

 Two weeks into the first 100 days’ project 2016, I am starting very slow.  The food journal is in effect and I am working on the sleep schedule.  Updates will be weekly because I have to have time for other writing projects and exercise plan.  The mindset is not here yet.  But it will eventually.  I will keep typing it until I make it true.  The project will be success.  I will be happy with my lifestyle and my environment. Like my quote above a year from now I will be glad that I started today or two weeks ago.   In later essays I will be talking about equipment, food journals and plans, time management.  I will also look into other health and wellness sites.  So many people are making the healthy lifestyle change.  I am not the only one.  I am not the only one struggling.   In the next 7 days my mindset and environment will be more positive.  That is the goal for this week.  Become positive.