100 minus 100

A Year From Now,  you may wish

 You had started Today

Karen Lamb

I know the title and the goal is ambitions.  I am a serial quitter.  I don’t know what I have typed in the past about making lifestyle changes.  I do know that when I was attempting it in the fall of last year.  I had to make conscious efforts to change.  Conscious painful effort to wake up at 5am, conscious effort to walk seventeen blocks 5 days a week.  I didn't make conscious food choices.  I counted calories and I kept a step app on me. I ate more than I burned that was not helpful to the cause but I learned my eating pattern.  For example when outside I eat responsibly, at home, I veg out and eat 3oz of cheese with a box of crackers.  That would be my first meal at 3pm in the afternoon.  Breakfast would be coffee, with a 2 teaspoons of brown sugar and evaporated milk.  I haven’t measure how much milk I put in my coffee.  It is something to research at a later date.  I will also have to work out the pros and cons of coffee.  It is after all a stimulant and diuretic; the debate will continue on another post.

This week is the beginning of the 100lbs gone in 100 days project XX (20).  I like roman numerals for things.  This starts January 11, 2015 to April 20, 2015. Cue for auspicious upbeat music. Every time, only twice, I have gone to a specialist to help me lose weight, they have recorded my measurements and weight.   I thought I would avoid that displeasure then I realized that it was a coward move.  Other people on the lifestyle change weight loss journey have been bravely honest.  Well actually I have only seen the bad a year after the good and new body.  But in my research to make this blog better, I reviewed many blogs or websites.  The top ten according to a magazine actually.  They have been going on for years before they were rated so at some point in their lives the bad was a reality.   

So this is a hard truth moment.  The picture above was taken about 3 years ago, I was about 210lbs.  I have gained 10-15lbs since then.  I fluctuate between 225lbs and 230lbs.  A Jenny Craig counselor told me that at my weight back then by this time I would be 250 or more. Suck it JCrg lady.  I don’t

love or hate Jenny Craig their programs have worked for many people just not me at the time or with my mind set. Not only do I serially quite I also self-sabotage.  But that is a post for another time.   I am talking about measurements.  I am comfortable in 2x shirts and size 20w jeans.  I also have three other sizes 18, 16, 14, I got rid of all my size 12 jeans they were depressing me.  I have clothes issues, this may lead to a blog post and it might not.  What is important is that no matter what I wear I feel like this on too many occasions.  Lumpy Space Princess from Adventure time.  Cartoon Network do not sue me, I have no cash.  I even sing ‘Whatever’ in my head. 

One of the goals of the life style change and this project is to improve on my confidence.  I have so many needs that go hand in hand with my wants that it can be frustrating when they are not met or half-assed.  I think it is worse when half-assed.  Since I am an adult.  I am facing the problems head on, me being the biggest obstacle.  I don’t think I will be able to do a 7day daily write.  Everyone needs a day and I think mine is the weekend.  I will do my best to keep all who are interested updated.  

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