Days 26

A year from Now you may wish 

You had started Today

-Karen Lamb

There has been a minor setback.  There has also been no physical change.  I should be more upset than I am but I am glad that is not the route this writer is taking.  Instead I recognizing what worked and what didn't.  I stopped posting because I wasn't home and my laptop is not portable.  It goes against the whole purpose of the machine but it is what it is.

In the last two weeks, there has been really bad weather and a stay in the hospital.  I can’t remember if I wrote it here but I have two lives.  The one on the internet and my real life.  In the internet life, I am a writer of entertaining and inspiring fiction, an essayist about the fortes and foibles of life.  In the real life, I am a mother, daughter, caregiver, for the last two weeks I have been giving care.  It takes a toll. I get out of sorts and lose my path.  I tend to spin for weeks before I get back on track.  I am glad to say that today is not that day.  So let us face the hard truths. 

I have only done one exercise routine in 2 months.  I have not planned my meals properly, pizza has been my meal of choice on 3 different occasions.  The last being this past Monday.   I am not perfect.  Perfection eludes me all the time.  I haven’t written in the 100 days project notebook.  Everything here is a free-write exercise on Microsoft word. A morning page, not in the morning pages book.  The morning pages is a writing tactic.  I learned from Julia Cameron, author of the Artist’s way.  It is a writing reference book to unlock creativity.  I am reading that book but it is on hiatus.  It is one of the four books I plan to review on the Joexperiment blog.wordpress.com, which is the review website/blog. 

The point of this entry may seem useless.  However, I am thinking of it as a method to relieve my mind.  Therefore it is an entry on mind wellness.  Everything that had been bothering me in on two pages and posted online for everyone to see.  Some might call it cathartic.  I say I can only go up from here and plan to. 

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