Week 10: Day 73

Week in Review 

Something went wrong ... Again 

A year from Now you may wish

You had started Today

-Karen Lamb

I lost track of time again.  The 100 days project got disrupted with life.  So I am a week or so behind.  I have a planner and a general idea of when the project will end the second week in October.  I have a rough idea that 100 days equals to 3 months, today I have realized that it also equals to 14 weeks.   100 days used to sound like so much time for me.  Now I am looking at how big a misconception this was.  Week 12 will definitely be a reassessment of what I am doing.  According to my calendar, this is week ten, if counted from my last post this is week 11.   I am breaking the rules somewhere.  I also don’t want to obsess about the time lost.  I want to work on progress.   Full disclosure there is little progress.  Getting back into the routine has not been easy, actually there isn’t really any routine.  There is the acknowledgement that a good or poor choice is made.  This sounds confusing but this is what my life.  I know I want the project to succeed. I know that maintaining motivation is a problem for me as well as keeping to schedule.  The concept of time has also become an issue to be dealt with.   

The focus of this essay I think is mindset.  It is safe to say that the weekend has affected

my week more than I will like. My desire for a positive Well-being was derailed, along with the essays for this blog.   Since doing the math, it has been realized that I will have to make a schedule and keep to it diligently.   I need flexibility and I have to find ways to make the right choices, when the unexpected occurs.    

This week has been shortened since it was the Labor Day weekend.  I didn’t attend any events celebrating Caribbean culture.  I had a small barbecue that dovetailed with my neighbors.  All was going well up until a certain time, there was an incident. I won’t go into it because I don’t know how to write it out objectively.  One of this essays maybe, I don’t know if I can bare myself like that with anyone and I doubt I can do it with the internet. I don’t want anything haunting me in the next 10 years.

 There has been little or no progress as mentioned above.  This is week in review essay.  So I will say the most interesting this is that sleeping routine has changed.  In attempts to find a golden time to work on writing projects.  I am waking up at 4 or 5 am in the morning.  This also means I am going to sleep earlier at night.  I have yet to organize myself b/c once I am awake so is everyone else in life, it is a little unsettling.  The good thing is that I am sleeping.  I have been able to get some reading done.  Now the trick is to get writing done as well.

I am living this post-it right now.  I have nothing I promised myself 10 years ago.  I take full responsibility for my actions and non-actions.   I am grateful that I have the opportunity to continue to change my life.   The goal is to stay positive pursue the things that will make life easier for all involved.  The weekend is looking meh.  I am hoping the next week along with analysis will be an improvement.